Where She's Kinda Sorta Back

... whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."   ---  Philippians 4:8

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Still here! But just barely. Gah.

Eighteen days ago I came down with a covid-like virus with lots of tiredness, coughing and another temporary partial hearing loss. I reread my post regarding my first bout in 2023 and uh-oh! My attitude sounded much more positive.

But back then, I'd not been bombarded the entire prior year with long lists of sad, challenging things. When you're repeatedly beaten down, it becomes more difficult to keep fighting.

Many's the time I've yanked out my copy of Battlefield of the Mind. This feeling like biblical Job isn't a good look for me.

Anyway, finally the tiredness is disappearing, most of the coughing and if I tilt my head a certain way, my hearing improves. Slowly I'm keeping up with housework, for always I recall how Almanzo Wilder jumped back far too soon from diptheria and had a stroke which affected him his life's remainder.

Wouldn't want that or a relapse, either.

Keeping this short, I'll just add that for decades I've aimed at creating beautiful days, but these past two weeks? I've switched to, instead, reveling in beautiful moments. To treasuring any loveliness no matter how tiny or short-lasting. 

To celebrating and savoring any task accomplished, anything which lifts my battle-weary spirit--and you know? That's become an even sweeter way to live.

Notice our lilac bush in the header? It's never before looked so full. And that's even the one which, years ago, contracted a disease. Taking a hand saw to it, I cut it down to a stump.

Sometimes we just need to let God prune us way, way back for the beauty which will appear later on.

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Oh, the temptation when one is sick to believe the world cannot spin without her! But instead, may it be a reminder that--although we have a part--it's not a 24/7 one. God places people here to take up our slack at such times as these to both help and humble us.

"Without patience, Life is extremely frustrating."

-- Richard Carlson

It amazes me how I'll have an overall bad day, but God can enable me to recognize many beautiful moments.

What matters is that I don't meditate upon the blinding negative circumstances, instead.

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And as I wrote at Facebook:

This morning I stepped out to the sunny porch to read and our young nextdoor neighbor (20's?) was mowing his lawn. I thought, "Oh well. I'm just thankful the sun is shining after all our dark days and it's not too warm to read."

Soon, the mower stopped and our neighbor said, "I can finish mowing later since you're reading your book right now."

Oh my. Who does that? Our sweet, kind neighbor, obviously.

I told him, "Oh! That's ok. I'm good at concentrating on my books. You go ahead and finish. Thanks!"

And considering I'm still not feeling 100%, his kindness was a huge blessing for me this Wednesday. Really, it takes so little for us to bless one another in unforgettable ways. We've had many neighbors, but NEVER one that cared that the lawn mower might be an inconvenience to a neighbor.

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And wow! May God greatly bless this young couple for helping me through these past two weeks via Youtube. Not only have they taken me places I'll never visit, but their expression of such unity and matching of temperaments blows me away. (Kinda makes me feel that, at that age, Tom and I did everything wrong.) シ

What a blessing to watch their joy and appreciation of everything!

(I've many favorites of their videos, but here's just one.)

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We watched the latest George Foreman movie and really enjoyed it.

Here's a tiny house story I enjoyed.

Elegant Rustic Grandma Chic

Living Simply In a Garden Shed

Never give up!

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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

Meanwhile, Down At the Little Yellow House in Goshen --

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”   --- John 16:33

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Oh dear. I aim at writing here once a week, but ....

First, I had to start manually advancing our old washing machine, causing me extra (tiring) trips down into the basement. Finally I discovered the hand wash cycle remains normal. Whew.

Then our 14 year old dishwasher went all I-just-want-to-do-a-sloppy-job-and-back-up-into-the-kitchen-sink-like-I-have-before-and-clog-your-drain. Last few loads, I had to examine every single item(!) and rewash many. Oh, and it grew a wall of mold.

And yes, I tried the hacks.

Finally, I gave-up on all that complication. I super disinfected it and now our dishwasher is the extra kitchen cupboard I always longed for. 

And washing dishes by hand? I adore the simplicity.

Then we had a day of high/bad air quality and guess who started coughing and feeling exhausted? Gah. Next day, too, and the next day and -- even when the weather app said, "Air's much better now! Open your windows! Be free! Go outside!

After more bleary-eyed perusing Youtube, I placed the small air-conditioner back in the upstairs window and ran it, even though outside was cold and rainy. That helped. (But those mid-May frost warnings made me cranky, for I couldn't transplant my indoor seedlings. Still haven't.)

Man, for days while draped over the couch with the cats, I was unable to think clearly. Groggily I'd repeat, "I love this life God's given me. I am grateful. And blessed. This, too, shall pass -- and mostly I recalled things like this:

"A great love knows that in every difficulty, every trial, every failure, the presence of the love one suffices... Just to be with Me, just to know I am beside you--does that bring you joy and peace?"

From God Calling

Eventually, while upstairs where always I felt better (hmm), I recalled our heater vents were still open. I sealed them and wow! Almost instantly I stopped coughing and felt awake.

Uh-oh. We began wondering if we have mold in the vents. Tom read about this, watched Youtube, and went all, "The sky is falling! The sky is falling! We'll have to leave while a professional mold expert (no regular vent guy) fixes the problem."

Eegads. I calmed him down. Reminded him I felt 95% better--and--that I'd need at least 3 days before the mold guy came lest he walk around with his gadgets and exclaim, "My, my. All the dust in your house!"  シ

Anyway, I think Tom's more serene about it all and we'll start with a duct work crew that's qualified and not likely to race into the street should they come across mold. 

Such is Life, right? So many tests which I'm determined to pass with godly reactions and attitudes. But yeah, sometimes it's ever so tempting to stay curled up on the red couch and wish them all away.

(Hint: go doing that and they'll just return later since God won't let us quietly flunk out. So let's all pass those tests, ok?)

"Repetitive complaining will attract things for you to complain about. Repeated gratitude will attract things for you to be grateful for."   

--Unknown.

Oh, and when we're not feeling well, it becomes super important to speak truth aloud so to drown out the hopeless voice from satan inside our heads (you know, like the one which says we'll always feel this bad, etc.).

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This was a huge helpful reminder for me lately:  Resilient and Strong

This young woman makes simple snacks look awesome!

Wow, one of Cass' most powerful decluttering (and living life well) videos, ever!

Don't know about you, but I found this video fascinating!

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We rewatched these movies recently and again enjoyed them:

Slumberland  (perhaps the most creative, colorful film I've ever viewed)

The Young and Prodigious T. S. Spivet (though there's talk of the death of a child in case that's a trigger for you)

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Books I Finished Reading in May:

Nonie: The Autobiography of Lenora Mattingly Weber

Chicken Every Sunday by Rosemary Taylor

Short and Tall Tales by Lilian Jackson Braun

Mystery of the Red Carnations by Mary C. Jane

Mystery on Echo Ridge by Mary C. Jane

Death and Wedding Cake by Nova Walsh

The Moffats by Eleanor Estes

Believe by Julie Mathison (I was so disappointed by the ending, but I understand why others would appreciate it.)

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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be.

 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

Where She Lost Lots of Weight But Didn't Realize Because ---

"A calm and undisturbed mind and heart are the life and the health of the body."   --- Proverbs 14:30

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Ok. Please keep in mind that each of us is at least a tad weird.  シ

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One of my oddities? I'd not weighed myself in 6 years. Hey, this was due partly to my last 'Garfield experience':

Er hem. And too, I felt terrific and mostly stopped caring what I weighed especially since piecing together a fun wardrobe of leggings, capris and flowy/tunic tops, all of which are dearly forgiving and always fit.

Also, Hobbit Cottage has no plethora of mirrors.

But then came 2024, lots of sad times and health issues. (Anyone else hate it when that happens?) If I didn't make dietary changes, there would be consequences.

And you know? Those were the boost I needed. (For me, health overrides vanity.) Suddenly I felt grace (much. grace.) to switch to my own version of the Keto Diet (see below). Probably this happened in January, with a total giving up of cheese/milk in March. 

And remember when I began skipping dinner lest I feel sick in bed at night? Wow, that's called intermittent fasting. I didn't know it was a thing.

Then not until 3 weeks ago did I begin almost daily walking the block and a half to the Little Free Library. Hardly a marathon, but something.

Well, a couple days ago while on the red couch, I thought, "I wonder if, after all these changes (and not visiting the cafe in 3 years), I've lost any weight? Maybe it's time to finally step on that dreaded scale." 

So I did. Got on the scale and saw I'd lost 25 pounds. You know, since 6 years ago. 

Wow. After all I've experienced lately, I so needed that good news, especially since part of a reason for fibroids is carrying around extra weight. Yikes.

Plus, during my research, I discovered that stress slows down healing (from most ills you can name), so now I'm training myself to realize when I've strayed from balance and calmness. (It surprised me to discover I'm not a Calm Cathy as I once believed).

Oh, to be led by Grace and God who created us and knows our bodies best! I can imagine no better, no healthier goal.

One reason to remain calm? So that we'll not speak harshly to our own selves and disrupt our peace and health.

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."   --- Galations 6:9

Note:

The main thought of this post is NOT that I lost weight. (I hope you'll not even mention that.) Rather, it's that slowly and consistently doing the right things will bring results--eventually--if we're willing to keep doing our part while we trust God to do His.

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To help me stay more consistently calm, I gathered a folder at Youtube which I titled Soothing Videos. Here are 5.

How to Romanticize Your Life

Gothic Seaside Vlog  (some of Desi's videos are like stepping inside a Victoria Magazine! Although, I do forward through her spooky movie and book recommendations. Hey, no one's perfect, not even Desi.)  ツ

Small Cottage Vintage Yellow Accent Ideas

Slowing Down Wasn't My Choice But I Needed It

What I've Learned This Spring

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The kinda-sorta keto diet I personalized for myself (and really, I don't go around feeling hungry. Honest.) ---

Walnuts, almonds, pumpkin seeds, pecans

Grass fed beef, organic chicken, tuna

Eggs, 

Apples, bananas, cherries, pears, pineapple

Berries (with 2 heaping tbl.'s plain Greek yogurt)

Broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, green salad, tomatoes, green beans, mushrooms, avocado, peppers, spinach, zucchini, pumpkin

1 square cacao (per day), Stevia

Almond milk, quinoa, pinto beans

Olive oil, avocado oil, beef tallow

Sliced turkey when we order in/have delivery (I remove 3 slices bread from the sandwich and eat the remaining vegetables with a fork.)

Occasional 3-ingredient, gluten free Aldi chips

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HaHa!

Oh, and if anyone ever tells you that people over 60 can't lose weight, I hope you'll say, "Ha! They're doing it every day."

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."   --- Jeremiah 29:11

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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

Perhaps You Gave-Up Right Before The Answer Came

"Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”   --- Matthew 19:26

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My sweet friend, Tracy, lost her mother.

Days later at Facebook she shared with us her beautiful tribute and here's a portion:

Honestly, I felt like Mama was invincible. She was always so strong because she had to be. If Mama was ever afraid, she never showed it to us kids. 

When my parents divorced, Mama moved us an hour away to a small Alabama town. I'm sure she had her moments of despair, but Mama had three daughters depending on her on top of caring for her mother who lived with us.

She made a way even when there didn't appear to be one.

I always think to myself, "What would Mama do in this situation?" One thing I know: she'd figure it out with grit and determination.

Wow. Such a beautiful piece and my mind kept swirling it around till landing upon this: the way I'd given up easily on hanging suet outside in honor of Neighbor Sally, just because rats raced up the crab apple tree to eat it.

For decades, discovering answers to problems would challenge me (in a good way) and like Tracy's mom, I could find answers where none appeared to be. Enjoyed it, even.

Yet these past couple years? I'd lost much of that. Instead, I'd complain,  roll my eyes and think, "Great. Yet one more head-tiring, disappointing, impossible thing around here. Gah." (How many such things creep inside us unnoticed?)

So. With Tracy's mom in mind, I stepped around our yard in search of another place to hang the suet--and found one:

The top center of that trellis thing.

And so far, perfect. The birds love the suet's new place and I'm pretty certain rats can't climb that, at least, not without exhausting effort. (Besides, we've not seen rats around in months.) Perhaps squirrels can reach it, (haven't seen one yet), but Sally loved feeding the squirrels and I'm fine with that.

Whew. I felt so encouraged to find that answer and I do thank-you, Tracy, for sharing your mom and reminding me to stay open to solutions even while sinking in the center of impossibilities.

I so wish to receive creative ideas from the Holy Spirit, but that's only going to happen after I stop repeating, believing, "Now this thing, this just isn't gonna happen."

It can happen, but only if I listen to the Holy Spirit, keeping an open mind and heart to whatever He shares.

If I believe something is impossible, then for me, it most likely will be.

"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up."   --- Galations 6:9

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Two Alaska Towns. One Survived. One Disappeared.  (I found this fascinating.)

More grandmacore decorating (minimalists --this may damage your mental health!)  シ  Yet a handful of these rooms took my breath away.

How to Protect Your Mental Health and Avoid Dementia

Some fun ideas for 'getting away from it all'

Quiet Spring Beginnings

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Books I finished reading in April:

By The Shores of Silver Lake by Laura Ingalls Wilder

Pioneer Girl: Growing Up On the Prairis by Andrea Warren

The Long Winter by Laura Ingalls Wilder

Little Town on the Prairis by Laura Ingalls Wilder

Berry the Dead by Nancy McGovern

Encyclopedia Brown Keeps the Peace by Donald J. Sobol

Encyclopedia Brown and the Case of the Disgusting Sneakers by Donald J. Sobol

Retiring With the Dead by Nancy McGovern

Becoming Madeleine by Charlotte Jones Voiklis

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And as I shared at Facebook:

Yes and she didn't listen in her 50's so maybe now in her 60's?   😏

"Things that don’t change eventually die. The ability to change is one of the greatest privileges we have as human beings, and it is a gift from God. It is part of the way He matures us, brings us fulfillment in life, and moves us forward into His unfolding plans for us. I encourage you to believe that change can happen in your life."

--Joyce Meyer

Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

The Aldi Lady and the Devil and --- :)

"Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”   --- Matthew 16:23

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So last Friday.

While home alone, our Aldi order arrived at the red door, so I carried the bags to the kitchen. Peeking inside, I gasped! A half gallon of strawberry ice cream sat leering at me.

No really. Leering.

Strawberry ice cream! My second favorite dessert in the world, but I'd not ordered it, for I've had to give up milk products (and sugar) for my health's sake. Consequences will happen if I don't.

Darn that Aldi Lady and her mistakes, anyway.

My second thought? "Get thee behind me satan." Seriously, this past year I've totally overhauled my diet and am determined to never again have fibroid (and other) problems. 

But what a temptation! I needed to sit down and pay our bills so I considered, "Hey. Afterward, I could eat a couple spoonfulls of ice cream as a reward then throw the remainder away." So yeah, I admit it went inside the freezer.

Yet after paying the bills, I thought, "No! This was just a test and I'm determined to pass it." So I yanked the ice cream from the shelf, placed it inside a paper bag, then marched it down the steps and outside to the trash can.

And smiled. I'd passed this test. Was sorely tempted, sure, but whew. I'd passed.

Tests arrive, you know, to show us how far we've come and how far we've yet to go. And how much we need to rely upon Jesus for moment by moment help.

And when we live aware of what's happening we can cease feeling frustrated, confused, and instead? Be grateful for the very power of God available to help us obey Him and succeed.

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"Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. "   --- Deuteronomy 8:2

Just a note: I've noticed--for us--we can afford organic and fresh grocery products now because we've given up so many garbage foods. 

Something I hope everyone will at least consider.

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I enjoy buying my garden seeds from Ebay! Flowers and vegetables. They're very inexpensive because most folks use limited, so-not-fancy packaging and just place their own homegrown seeds inside. Many are organic, as well. Highly recommended.

Daily I'm still counting my Top Four Blessings of the Day. A life-changing thing, really, and I love that I can depend upon 4+ special things happening each day. (So often, half will be that I finally unprocrastinated doing something.)   ジ

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Okay, this decorating video was lovely because the ideas were so doable, especially if you live near a thrift shop or visit lots of yard sales.

Wow, the first part of this video was absolutely dreamy and showed the kind of life I'd imagined for myself while young. Yet God chose for me to have forms and pieces of this lifestyle throughout my decades, instead, and I'm happily content with that.

For other fans of The Waltons out there, do you ever watch Judy Norton's videos about her memories of the show? Mostly just rabid fans will enjoy them, but here you go. One of my favorite of her videos is here.

I've got that 'Springtime Has Finally Arrived' feeling in my heart! 

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"Rejoice in the Springtime of the year. Let there be Springtime in your hearts. The full time of fruit is not yet, but there is the promise of the blossom.

Know surely that your lives too are full of glad promise. Such joys, such wonders.

All is indeed well. Live in My Sunshine and My Love."

From God Calling by A. J. Russell

Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

This May Not Be Biblical, But I'm Glad I Did It Anyway

"An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life. She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. She is like the ships of the merchant; she brings her food from afar."   --- from Proverbs 31

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Two years after moving to the farm, Tom was downsized from his job. An unforgettable day, that one.

Another memorable thing? Soon after, something startled me. Tom continued to mow the lawn, but I did everything else. 

Everything. Else.  And somehow that glaring discrepancy had never appeared so obvious in all our decades together. (He'd not even mowed the lawn till we moved to the farm. But remember, he'd had polio, though always I'd tried not to baby him for that reason.)

Yet it was more. Namely, for the first time I realized that if (heaven forbid) something ever happened to me, Tom would be sunk. Marooned. I'd taken all those 'wives should do everything for their husbands' Bible verses far too literally.

I'd created, not a monster, but a Helpless Husband.  Uh-oh.

So since Tom now had all sorts of free time, I began teaching him--maybe not how to run a house--but to keep it (and Life) from collapsing. Believe it or not, yes, this included how to boil water (he didn't know to place a lid over the pan).

I taught him to cook simple meals. Which pans and dishes to use. How to load the dishwasher. How to feed the cats, sweep the floor, clean out the refrigerator and --

You know, just enough to where, if on his own, he'd be ok. Not live in squalor or defeat. And when the training was over, I felt more relaxed and better about the future.

Well, (not for the first time) this training came in handy last weekend.

Turns out my recent no-pain-yet-annoying-health-issue was due to a fibroid. Took me ages to pinpoint that, but when I did, thankfully, Dr. Berg showed me what to do. Ten days later, it was 'sloughed away'. (I'm skipping a zillion details, but I refuse to have As I See It Now become an old lady's illness ramblings.)

Anyway, I became a bit anemic, so I needed Tom's help and now I could relax while he cooked me some grass-fed ground beef, and fed the cats, and filled the dishwasher, etc.

The lessons in all this? Many, really, but Life does become easier when we daily seek wisdom and balance. Go living with those and our days will make more sense and even become easier. 

No really, they will.

"Blessed is the one who finds wisdom, and the one who gets understanding, for the gain from her is better than gain from silver and her profit better than gold."   Proverbs 3:13

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Some links for different interests:

A chocolate cake with only 2 ingredients

Chimney Rock 6 months after Hurricane Helene

Everything you're eating is toxic

Vintage Maximalist Grandma Decor

The Simple Joys of an Ordinary Life

A cottage decorated in a simple vintage style

Upcycled containers in every room

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"The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding."   --- Proverbs 4:7

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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

April This and That

1.) Weeks ago I began what I call Slow Motion Spring Cleaning. What's that? That's where I, each day, spend just 5 minutes on a simple cleaning task like wiping down a couple kitchen cupboards, or cleaning a storm door or using mineral oil on a hutch, etc. You know, tasks I do perhaps 2 or 3 times yearly.

Nearly 3 weeks later, oh my! I've accomplished much well before (a tiring) gardening season arrives. But it feels as though I cheated, for I expended so little energy.

A new habit for the rest of my life, this Slow Motion Spring Cleaning. Highly recommended.

2.) And oh! Darling Desi recommended a couple magazines I'd never heard of and although I stopped reading magazines years ago, these tempt me:

Daphne's Diary

Bella Grace: Book of Lists

Now, these are a bit pricey, but I've got some Christmas and birthday gift card money left, so we shall see.  シ

3.) And for a smile--

4.) Movies I can recommend:

The Maiden Heist  The rest of this movie was good, but the ending! Loved, loved it. I'd actually considered a similar ending, but thought Hollywood was too clueless to go there. Got me a tad teary-eyed, even.

Hoovey  

Buckley's Chance

The Christmas Letter  Lots of good Life lessons in this one.

Unstoppable  

Nefarious  Took me some weeks to prepare ahead mentally for this one (after watching the trailer), but since watching, I find myself viewing peoples' behavior differently and praying for them rather than shaking my head in disbelief.

All of My Heart  You can find this fun movie at Youtube.

5.) This just may help you sleep better at night!

6.) Books I finished reading in March:

Tending to Grace by Kimberly Newton Fusco

The Luckiest Girl by Beverly Cleary

Murder at the Bee Farm by Sue Hollowell

The Feather Chase by Shannon L. Brown

Emily's Runaway Imagination by Beverly Cleary

Mrs. Miniver by Jan Struther

Buried Secrets of the Copper Locket by D. L. Bush

A Murder Moist Foul by Summer Prescott

7.) Tom and I watched this estate sale video rather for old times' sake and I think it forever cured us of even dreaming of returning to those days. 

In fact I told Tom, "I know in Heaven peace, joy and forgiveness will be swirling around everywhere, yet if I left that much junk for Naomi to sort through? There is no way I'd have 100 percent peace. No way, not after God specifically asked me to declutter for Naomi's sake."

Oh dear.

8.) The Sassiest and Funniest Test Answers  (Oh my, the way children think!)

9.) For ages I've carried a black book bag instead of a purse and inside of it? There's a black wallet and a black checkbook holder/change purse and other black things. Go looking for anything and it's like my arm is circling around in a dark cave, unable to find the specific thing I need.

So this week, after our tax appointment in town (where I couldn't decipher between my checkbook and wallet and felt like the world was tapping its foot and waiting on me), I came home and ordered a light pink wallet. Whew, it'll make my life easier.

(And as always,what took me so long?)

10.) And may we always remember this:

Happy Springtime! I'm so anticipating seeing green outside my windows again. (These final days of all grey do make me a bit bonkers, I confess. Uh oh.)

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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15